Since this is actually read ...

Since this is read and I don't type just for the heck of it, I'll try to do a real update this time. Just keep in mind that I'm suffering from a case of CRS.

I'm in a funk these days. Thanksgiving plans - all of them, fell through, though it was no ones fault. But the holidays can put in me in funk all by themselves. But to put the icing on the cake, on Sunday it was 5 years since my mother passed away. I still don't know how I feel about it all but there is something in there stirring around or it wouldn't have bugged me. Nope - not feeling guilty about not going to the funeral. But, I don't know what it is that is going on.

But - there is this internal fight going on. Those of you who know me and my medication issues, know that I go through this once in a while. Well, when I was I the Halloween cruise, I stopped taking my afternoon dose of Seroquel. The thing is, now I believe that I need to put that dose back, either by adding it to my morning dose or taking it in the afternoon (too hard to remember). I'm forgetting to do things at work until I get a reminder, I'm crabby at work and that is unusal since I'm not under a lot of stress right now. I don't have a large attention span.
All of this says - increase the Seroqeul. I'm saying - I don't want to, I want to keep the dose lower. How am I ever going to get off the damn med if I can't lower it by 50 mg?
Okay - we know who will win the fight in the long run, I just have to go thru the motions.

Christmas is coming and right now I'm not sure what I'm doing. Becky won't know until the week before if she will be working at JCP. If she can work, I told her to go make some money. After all, she needs it. I need to talk with Robert and see what his plans are. Maybe he will drive down. I know I can't drive up, at least until I feel more sure about what my BP is doing.
I can't go to far the week of Christmas since Tony has taken the week off, that means I have to work.

I'm thinking that I may fly up to CT in Jan. when Bernie's brother Rick comes home for a visit.
I'll have to figure out my schedule and see what is going on. If there are available desks at work, I may be able to go up and not use much PTO time. All in good time.

Well, it's time to go and do something but I don't know what. Maybe journal, if I can keep my attention on what I'm doing. Maybe I'll write out some Christmas Cards - not sending many but I am doing some. Then there is the Christmas shopping to do or is that banging my head against the wall. I only have a few people to buy for and I can't figure out what to get. It's a darn good thing I don't have to buy for more.

Does Anyone Read This.

It has been forever since I've posted but since no one has mentioned it, I guess no one is really reading my Blog.

Stuff has been happening but mainly, I'm tired and stressed these days.

I suppose if you are really interested in what has been happening you can post a reply and I will write more. This way I'll see if anyone is really reading this.