The Saga Continues

I met with my lawyer today after work to discuss what the next step(s) are. Yesterday he sent a fax the the Bitch's lawyer letting her know we were going to meet to discuss a partition action (similar to a foreclosure) and if they had made any headway. He received a fax back letting him know that my "sister" had applied for a mortgage and would know something in 2 weeks. For those who know my sister, she is still working nights and the lawyer gave the excuse that working nights makes it hard for her to get things done during the day. That has never stopped her before. BTW - the attorney has been practicing law on her own for less then a year, so I guess my "sister" has gotten her wrapped around her little finger.
I find it funny that her attorney is getting annoyed with my attorney who keeps faxing her letters and calling. We all know that the attorney will never get any control over her client but she should at least try to instill in the bitch the importance of getting this done.

Okay - so what are we planning on doing?

My attorney will be faxing a letter (probably on Monday) to the bitch's attorney with the following information:
Since we are pretty sure that the financing isn't going to take place (or something to that sort)
we are proposing that we agree to sell and sign an agreement or my "sister" does come up
with the financing my April 15th or we will start the Partition Action.

If my "sister" doesn't follow through I have to be ready to start the court process, there is no
backing out of it. We have to show we mean business.

My attorney wanted to give them 30 days and I told him I would rather 15 since they would use all the time that we gave them and they have had enough already. So, we compromised on April 15th. I hate the thought of starting the court process since that alone can cost me over a thousand dollars but if that is what I have to do in order to make her get off her ass I will.

I am hoping having such a short deadline to get things done will make her move. My attorney, in his letter, is going to say something about going to court being a lose - lose situation. I can't imagine that my "sister" would want to move. Not that I care but, she has a lot more to lose then I do but, that is her choice if she doesn't decide to follow through on what she is suppose to.

So, as of Monday when the letter gets faxed, the count down to April 15th starts. I don't know what day of the week that falls on but I need to be ready to go meet with an attorney down in Windham as close to that date as possible if we don't hear anything.

In the meantime, I am struggling with my urges. All sorts of anger is surfacing and I don't like it.
I don't like the bitch having control and I'm doing what I can to take it away. Which brings up a whole different set of feelings since I am going against everything I've ever done which is back done from the bitch.

If anything new comes up, I'll post....and the saga goes on...

Delima

First a quick update on what is happening with my sister - nothing! How's that for quick? I called my lawyer this morning and they haven't heard anything since last week. He is also reading between the lines and figures that they must be going ahead and getting the loan. It would be nice to know where it all stands but as my lawyer reminded me - they seem to be working on their own time table. Of course I always have the option of taking the bitch to course but we've come this far and it just doesn't make sense to do that.

Any way I knew when my father called a couple of weeks ago to tell me about my uncle he would start to initiate more contact with me. He hasn't sent me b-day cards in a few years. Today I got one in the mail and I don't know if I want to open it or not. I can't stand those cards that are all mushy. Full of how much he loves me, blah, blah, blah. He blew it a long time ago and proved a few years back that he still can't be in touch with his feelings or understand mine. The cards just seem so false to me.
So, I sit here wondering what to do with the card. Do I open it and get pissed at him for sending it but get a chance to make sure there is nothing written inside that I might be interested in. There are just a couple of relatives that I care about.
Do I just toss it out without opening it? Do I bring it to therapy and have Pam open it or I can open it there?
I'm pretty sure that I can't open it while I'm alone. Just know it is from him has upset me and I hate that. I hate that he can still get to me and cause a reaction. For someone who hasn't been a part of my for a very long time, why the hell does he have such an affect on my life?
Why can't I let go of these feelings and not let him get to me? He shouldn't have this much control over me. He didn't give a damn back then and I've gotten to where I am today without him being a part of my life - why can't I go on and not let him get to me? Why does it hit me so hard whenever he enters into my life - in his own way?

The latest EXCUSE

My lawyers office called today and they finally heard from my sisters' lawyer. It only took 2 weeks for her to return his call.

Anyway - the latest excuse for things being held up is: My sisters' lawyer is waiting to hear from my sister with the last name of someone that she wants to give $10,000 to. Yes, that is what my lawyers office told me. Seems like her credit must not be as bad as she indicated a year ago.

I hate to assume because we all know what that does but since we haven't heard any different - they must be accepting the offer we presented them with since they haven't come back with a counter offer. I also need to assume that she is in the process or has already applied for a loan if her lawyer is collecting a list of who is going to get money. It will be interesting to see how all this plays out. I better be getting the amount we offered or whatever work they have done is useless (not that it is my problem). I would love to find out how much money she is actually getting from the bank and how much she is keeping for herself. Who knows, maybe I will if I get a chance to glance at the paperwork. If all this is almost set I would like to know since I am going to have to take time off from work to go down and sign the paperwork.

My one condition on going down to sign the paperwork will be that my sister not be present and preferably not even know when I will be going down. I don't want to run into her. Once everything is signed and I have a check in hand, I no longer have to deal with her. YEAH!!!!!
It will be the best news I've gotten in a long time. So, the waiting goes on for a little while longer but if the bank is waiting for any information, she can't take too long to respond because the bank will not put up with it.

And the saga continues....

Stupidity 101 - Part 2

Just so you all don't think I'm the only one that does really stupid things that can't be explained, here's another story I would like to share. I'm not going to name the person, that wouldn't be nice.

Person A had been running errands with her mother and stopped at the store. Now keep in mind that her mother is sitting in the passenger seat and does not drive. When Person A came out of the store, having bought nothing: she looked at the car next to hers, opened the back door and sat in the back seat. Her mother looked at her and Person A said, she had no idea why she was sitting there. Her mother thought she opened the back door to put stuff in the back seat.


Something not quiet so bad: someone I know in the past week or so has worn their glasses or socks into the shower a number of times.

It must be something in the air that is making us forget to do what we are really suppose to be doing. There is no other way to explain it.

Back From My Mini-Vacation

I came home yesterday from my mini vacation totally exhausted but I had a great time.

On Sunday we went to Atlantic City for about 4 hours and then we out to eat at Big Ed's. Great BBQ rib place. All you can eat ribs.

On Monday, Sharon and I planned a route to go looking for Lighthouses. I like lighthouses and she likes taking pictures so it works out well. We had a wonderful time acting silly and everything. We stop at 4 lighthouses. We even had a police escort to one of them. We asked for direction, and the cop said, "follow me".
Pictures will follow. I have to have mine deveoped and Sharon is going to create me a CD of the pictures she took.

On Tuesday, Sharon and I went to Hershey. If you are a choc-a-holic, this is the place for you. Chocolate everything. We didn't do any of the shows but they have a 3-D show. Can you image having Chocolate bars coming at you in 3D? I don't know - I think I would have dreams about that. After going to Hershey, we decided to go to Philly so Sharon could go to the Hard Rock Cafe and get a shirt and get a shot glass for Julie. We stopped at a little store on our way and a the guy there told us a different way to go then what we had planned.
When we made it to Philly and then to Market Street, which by the way has a building in the middle of it - we did find the Hard Rock Cafe.
We left at 10 in the morning and didn't get back to Julie's until a little after 8pm.

We came home yesterday and I was exhausted but it was a good exhausted. I'm not use to being on the go like that. But, alas, it's back to work but only for 2 days.

Stupidity 101

Can any of you beat this for stupid things "I" have done?

I was getting ready to leave on Saturday afternoon/early evening to go to Sharon's and then we were headed to NJ to spend a few days with Julie.

I was running behind schedule and not being fully focused on what I was doing (making sure I had everything I needed and thinking out some things that Robert and I talked about) when I got into the car to leave I didn't close the door. Now, most of us when we get in the car, automatically close the door and never give it a second thought. Well, I never did give a second thought to closing the car door but the problem is, I never did close it. I started to back out of the garage when the car stop aburptly (sp). The door, leaving a hole in the garage wall.

Now - is there anyone out there that can beat this stupid act?

What I realized tonight

I was making some notes befoe therapy tonight and realized that despite or because of all the crap that has happened in my life, I'm who I am today. I am most likely a much stronger person then I would ever have been if I didn't need to go through this healing process. Not that I wish this upon anyone but throughout the years I have struggled to rebuild my life and I can honestly say that I am happy for the first time in I don't know how long. I am in love with a very caring and understanding guy. I think I am really in love for the very first time - this feels so much different then when I was married the first time and thought I was in love. I probably was in love, just in a different way.

It is so different to have a connection with someone, to be able to talk to someone about anything, to know that someone really cares about you and is concerned. It's hard to really explain that really good feeling that I have inside - but it's there and I don't want to lose it.

Trust and Courage

I sucked up all the courage I had yesterday, after many hours of internal struggle, and gave Robert my razor blade. It was one of the hardest things I had to do. In a way it was giving up a safety net. Not that I was going to use it, but it was always there. I knew if things ever got really bad, I could turn to it. I wasn't suppose to but I could and deal with the consequences later.
I decided that what I needed to do was to hand it over to Robert. He knows about my past, he knows about my issues with drinking and cutting. It's up to me to tell him when I'm having a hard time and when I need more help. He might not be the right one to help me but he needs to know.
I also told him he could keep beer in the house but he doesn't want to tempt me. Again, it is really up to me to let him know when I'm having a hard time.

The Washing Machine Caper

I started my laundry yesterday, just like any other Sunday but, shortly there after the washing machine started to make this terrible noise (somewhat like when it's out of balance). Knowing that it shouldn't be out of balance based on what I had in the washer, I went to check it out. What I found was the clothes just spinning around instead of aggitating like they should. I speard the clothes out and started the washer again and guess what....it happened again. I had to put up with that horrid noise threw a total of 3 loads of laundry. I had to get it done, there was no choice.

Needless to say, today after work, after dropping the appraisal report off at my lawyers, I went and bought a new Washing Machine. It will be here on Saturday sometime (I'll know better as to when Friday night). Now all I have to do is make sure there is enough room in the basement for them to move the washing machines around and also make sure the driveway is cleared of snow since we are expecting SNOW this week.

And BTW, the Cleaning elf came to my house today and took care of all those things I didn't get done this weekend. So, I guess it's all in who you know if the elves show up or not.

Appraisal Report

I received my appraisal report yesterday by fax and received the hard copy today.
I'm very happy with the professionalism with the place that I used. The appraisal was done on Tuesday and the appraiser had a question and the report was completed yesterday.

The appraisal I received was $11,000 more then the one done by my sister. This one also included the items that I indicated as missing from the first report. My opinion is that we use the report that I received and present it to my sisters lawyer. I don't know what they will say but based on the fact that this is more thorough, I feel this is the better one to use. I still need to discuss this with my lawyer.
We are going to have to give my sister a certain amount of time to accept or decline the amount and then a certain amount of time to obtain an approval for a loan. I will also want to see proof that she has been approved or denied the loan. I will not take her word on any of this.

Things in my life are going good right now.

Just an update

Things have calmed down a bit in my life for right now.

Robert and I have been talking a lot and taking things slowly. We are going to really give this relationship thing a try. Robert is committed to staying here and he is the one I really want to be with. He is not pushing me to make any decisions that I'm not ready to make and we both know that making a relationship work, will take work from both of us.

Ray is not taking this too well. As in, he just doesn't understand how this could have happened so quickly. I've told him this is someone that I've known for a long time and we probably should have tried a serious relationship a long time ago. He keeps thinking that he was just a fill in for Robert and maybe in a way he was but, I had no idea what was going on with Robert. The other thing was, Ray and I had a purely physical relationship.
There are too many things that I can come up with that makes up non-relationship material. He doesn't take me seriously when I try to tell him what some of these things are. He says he hears me, but he obviously doesn't listen.
Ray still thinks that we are going to have sex even though I am committed to building a relationship with Robert. It just isn't going to happen. He is only fooling himself.

The appraisal on the house is being done on Tuesday and I should have the report on Wednesday or Thursday by fax and they will also mail me a hard copy. I'll have to review this wilth my lawyer and then make an offer to my sister for an amount that is acceptable to buy me out. We may need to go back and forth a little but if we can't come to an agreement, the only option left will be court. Something I'm not looking forward to at all. It is in everyone's best interest to come to an agreement on an amount and to stay out of court.

I think I'm all caught up on what is currently happening in my life or at least what is most important right now. I know there are other things that need to be addressed but they seem to be on the back burner right now.

Current Happenings

I'm pretty stressed out these days with things that are going on in my life but, that doesn't seem to be anything new. I seem to be running in a stressed out state lately. I hoping that it ends someday soon.

I have adjusted to the new medication and I'm no longer bouncing off the walls and for the most part I'm sleeping fairly well. It's too soon to tell if it's really working or not. In about 6 weeks I'll have to go for a blood test to have my TSH level tested to see if it has dropped.

I talked with my lawyer and it was decided that the best thing for me to do at this point was to have my own appraisal done. So, I'm sucking it up and spending the money. The appraiser who will be doing the job has been on vacation and will contact my sister to get into the house either Monday or Tuesday and the appraisal should take place the early part of next week.
I also called the assessor of the town to question the differences that I know about the house and what was on their web site. She explained to me what they had on their records and let me know that the web site was wrong. They are going to send an inspector out to the house to ensure that their records are correct.

My only consellation in all of this, is I'm sure that my sister is or will be really pissed that these 2 things will be happening and there is no way she can refuse them entrance. She has or had no idea that I am taking steps to have these done. I am waiting for her to call me and complain or she might call her lawyer who in turn will call my lawyer. Since my name is on the deed, there is nothing she can do about it.
I had a dream on Thursday night about this and my sister was in it. I woke up Friday morning shaking. That's not a good thing.

Now for my personal life which seems to get more complicated ever so often. Robert called me Friday night to tell me he is back from Jamaica. I guess he figured I must have found out that he went there from his brother. We only talked for a couple of minutes. He said there are things we need to talk about. And he is right. I will give him a chance to explain what is going on and why he left like he did. I'm not sure how I'll handle it and I'm not sure what will come out of it. I know I'm a little scared of letting myself get close to him yet again - though I don't think I ever really let go, just pushed the feelings away. My past says that people who say they care or should care end up hurting me. That is not always true, I have some very good friends who have been there for me through thick and thin but, it's hard for me not to expect to be hurt.

I'm not sure how Ray will handle things if Robert and I do get back together. Ray and I are just friends. He keeps reminding me to not let my feelings get involved. That's pretty easy to do at this point. If I let my feelings get involved, then I can end up getting hurt and I don't want that. But on the other hand, when I don't call him and I'm home alone, he wants to know why.
Last night he called to find out what I was doing and I told him just playing games. He wanted to come over. I told him that I wouldn't be able to focus on anything. That I was confused about things. He wanted to know what was going on. I told him that I wasn't ready to talk to him about things yet. It's the first time he has asked what was going on with me. The real reason he cared was because he was going to get any. I told him I needed time alone. He told me I should have at least called him to let him know that I needed that time. I try to explain to him that when I get like this, I don't call people, it doesn't matter who they are. He doesn't get it.

I'm going to have to tell Ray something at some point. I'm not sure I can be with him until Robert and I clear the air and I know what is really happening. I don't know what it is about Robert but there is something there that draws me to him. Right now I'm just confused because I don't know what is happening with Robert but I don't think I can get myself to be with Ray while Robert is back.

I've been struggling big time with my urges. Eating to much chocolate instead, which isn't much better. It's one day at a time right now. That is all I can really handle.

And the saga continues.....

Test

This is a test since my post from yesterday didn't show up. I don't know why, maybe this will help

New Medication

Everyone knows how much I enjoy taking more medication. I started the synthroid for the Hypothryroidism yesterday. Some of the side effects for this med are: headache, nervousness, trembling, sweating, increased appetite, diarrhea, weight loss and insomnia. The rare side effect for this med is some hair loss but it is only during the first few months of starting it.

Just because I can't possibly start a new medication without having some type of side effect, I have a few that I hope will clear up before the weekend ends.

The side effects that I am having are: insomnia (I slept 1 1/2 hours last night) and nervousness (I feel like I'm going to jump out of my skin most of the day). I have had some trembling in the upper part of my body. I'm going to try to wait these out since I've only taken the synthroid for 2 days.

I don't think I could go for a long period of time without getting much sleep right now. I've done that before when I wasn't so stressed out and I couldn't stand it.

Good News for a Change

It's day 364 of 2003 and I have finally gotten some good news. I received the results of my biopsy today (unfortunately the doctor left a message at my house so I didn't get to talk to him) and everything is OKAY. I'll call him on Friday to find out what is exactly going on. As long as there are no problems, I'm in no rush. I also want to find out if the fibroid is causing any of the pain in my back/hip because if it is, the fibroid is a goner.
If not, it's off to my PCP.

Whatever Happened to Professionals Acting Like Professionals

As you know I received a copy of the appraisal on Monday and it came in lower then expected. I have looked at the appraisal more closely since then and have found there are errors with the report and things missing as far as I am concerned.
I have a copy of the revaluation assesement done by the town and it states the house has 8 rooms. The room count on the appraisal says 4 and where the appraisal breaks down the rooms by floor, the count comes up to 5. Something is fishy.
I also feel there are things that should have been at least commented on since I didn't see a place for them to be indicated anywhere else.
This means, I have to contact my lawyer with this information and I want the appraiser to re-do the appraisal. I want a corrected report and I want it in a timely manner (which of course is a joke).
I am not going to pay to have this one reviewed or pay for my own when the appraiser did a shoddy job to begin with.

For those of you that have been following any of my medical stuff, I received a call from my PCP yesterday. It seems that my TSH level was slightly high back in August when my shrink tested it and it is still high. I will be starting on Synthroid next week. Just what I need another medication. Most likely this is one that I'm going to have to take forever.

I am still waiting on the results of my biopsy. I don't do that well so with any luck, I will get them soon.

The New Year will be here soon and I am bringing into the New Year all of the crap that I am ending the old year with. There's something wrong with that picture.

A mircale of sorts has happened but it was short lived.

The long awaited appraisal has finally arrived. I guess the appraiser does know how to use a fax machine after all. He did not send it as he promised Friday afternoon but this morning.

Anyway, I am not a happy camper. The appraisal came in a lot lower then I thought it would based on some research that I had done. This means I have a few options and it also means that this will take more time. Everything takes more time. The appraisal was done on 11/10 and the report was completed on 11/17. The original appraisal should have been done 2 or 3 months before that.

My options are:
accept this appraisal as is
have my own appraisal done
have another appraiser review this appraisal and explain it to me (this would cost less then
having my own appraisal done), but could result in the appraiser recommending that a new
appraisal be done.

I will not accept this appraisal as it is. I feel the amount is way to low and I don't don't my sisters lawyer or the appraiser. Both of them have acted very unprofessonial.

I think my next best option would be to have another appraiser review the appraisal that I currently have on hand and explain it to me. I also have some questions since I don't feel certain things were taken into account.

I am sure that the inside condition of the house had an affect on the appraisal but according to my lawyer it shouldn't have been that much. What would affect it more would be if the plumbing and electrical have been updated. And as far as I know, it has been. At least most of it. The house was built in 1900 and most of the rooms have been redone.

So, now I have the task of finding an appraiser who works in the Windham area and who works on Saturday so I don't have to take time off from work to review the appraisal. I'll have to explain to them the layout of the house as I know it (who knows what they might have done to it) and what the garage looks like.

That is about it for now. I'm just really pissed about this whole thing. I'm sure that the appraiser was told to take his time doing this and getting it to my lawyer. I wouldn't be surprises if he was also told to come in with a low number.

Family just sucks!!!!!

I have received the name and number of the appraiser from my lawyer's office. The appraiser still has not returned any of the calls from my lawyer's office and they are happy to let me try to contact him. I don't really expect to get any further but it can't hurt to give it a shot.

I located the web site for the appraiser and even though I didn't need to request a new appraisal be done, I filled out the form and put in lots of comments. I made a point of stating that it wasn't a request for an appraisal but to get the report for an appraisal that was already done. Explaining that my lawyer had tried to contact him numerous times and had not received and returned calls. I told him the name of the lawyer that had requested the orignal appraisal and also told him that I felt the time frame that has taken place so far was unreasonable. That I would like to get the appraisal amount and to have the appraisal document either faxed to my lawyer or mailed to myself. I gave them my home email and phone number and also my work email and phone number just in case they contact me before 3:30 today (which I doubt). I thought I would attempt to contact them by email to see if it helps.

They are located in Hebron and if this doesn't seem to do the trick, I will try calling that office directly, though why have an 800 number if you aren't going to respond to the messages that are left on it. I feel that my sister and her lawyer are somehow behind making this take so long. The longer they are able to drag this out, the longer my sister has to put off getting a loan or attempting to get a loan.

That's all for now.

Yesterday. Yes, yesterday was one day that goes down as very painful, physically and emotionally. I went to the GYN for a Vaginal Ultrasound. That by itself isn't so bad. If found it a little uncomfortable but some woman, don't feel anything at all. Then they did a Sonohistograph (or something like that, I can't find the paper I wrote the name on). Basically what they do is put sterile water into the uterus using a long tube. That part doesn't really hurt, it's just comffy. The pain, cramping (bad) comes when they do the ultrasound following that. This is the part I had a major problem with (physical pain and emotional pain). Since they found that the uterine wall was thicker then it should be, my GYN then took a sample of the uterine lining, which didn't hurt any where near as the ultrasound.
By this point I was in tears and having a real hard time. My GYN helped me up and could tell I wasn't doing well. He did ask what was going on and was willing to listen. At that point I just couldn't talk. All I wanted was to get out of there and get some air.

They also found a fibroid in my uterus, which is causing my irregular periods. It is up to me if I have that treated or not. I didn't ask him if it could be causing the pain in my hip and lower back, at the time I couldn't think. I'll call and see what he says. If it is at all possible that is what is causing the pain, then I'll have him remove it, otherwise, I just might leave it alone.

It will be a week to 10 days before they get the results of the biopsy back. So, it's time to sit and wait and we all know I don't do that very well. Most likely there is nothing wrong, but what he is doing is ruling out the bad stuff and I can't help but think there will be something wrong.
I just have to try to get through one day at a time. It's going to be hard, all the waiting.


As far as the appraisal goes, there is still no news. My lawyer's office was suppose to get me the number of the appraiser yesterday but the secretary didn't know where my chart was when I called her back, so my lawyer must have had it. I had asked him in the morning, if I would be out of line to call on my own, and he said no. Maybe he thought twice about it and called again on his own. He knows I'm really upset about all this. I'll call them later today and see what is going on and see if I can get the number.

Once I get the name of the appraiser, I'll list the name of my sisters lawyer and the appraiser's name. I know most of you are not in the area but, if anyone knows of anyone in the Windham area needing a lawyer or an appraiser, I want to make sure that this lawyer and appraiser don't get the business. They are very unprofessional. The best way to hurt them is to make sure they don't get work. My lawyers secretary told me yesterday, that my sisters lawyer did not like the attitude of my lawyer. I don't understand, this has been going on way to long and I don't think she is doing anything. I know she is working for my sister and doing what my sister is telling her. But where is the follow up on what is being done and where is the professionalism that is suppose to be there.

It will be a full year soon that I started this process and I have no more information then when I started. The only thing I do have is a lawyer bill (which I haven't seen yet).
Family really sucks.

The holidays are getting closer, which also means they will be over soon. I can't wait. I need them to be done and over with. Right now, what I really want to do is hide from the world until the holidays are over. That isn't possible, so I must force myself to get out there and pretend that things are okay when they really aren't.

As I get any news, I'll update you all.

In a few weeks it will be one year since I started the process to have my sister buy out my half of the property which we hold jointly. To date, we are no further along then we were then except, the appraiser says he has done the appraisal. My lawyer said he must be chipping it out of granite because he can't seem to get us the few sheets of paper that the appraisal is printed on.
I wonder if this appraiser knows that fax machines work after normal business hours. We should have had the appraisal in our hands last week but the appraiser seems just as incompetent as the lawyer my sister has.

You would think I would be good at waiting by now, but it doesn't get any easier especially when you know that no one is pushing to get things done except on my end. And that doesn't really count if the other side doesn't do anything.

I am ready to go to the appraisers office and get the appraisal myself if that is what it will take. There is no reason we shouldn't have that in our hands. There is no reason this shouldn't be further along then it is except, that I'm sure my sister has told her lawyer not to push anything. And my sisters lawyer has a "so what's the rush" attitude, according to my lawyer. I am doing everything to keep this out of court which is why we are still sitting around and waiting for things to happen. If we go to court the only ones that win are the lawyers. My lawyer keeps telling me, that court is the last place we want to end up. I agree with him.

So, once again, I'm ready to kill people. How do you get people to do things that they should be doing? What happened to professional curtosey (sp)? I know my sister is behind a good part of the "don't rush things". But, you would think, knowing that court is an option, they wouldn't let things drag out to long.

I can't take the waiting and all the people not doing their job the way that they should. I can't imagine how they make a living when they function like they do.


Thursday is fast approaching and I have to go to the GYN for my ultrasound. I'm not really nervous about the ultrasound itself. What makes me nervous is, they just might find something. I tend to thing the worst. If by change they do find something, he will do a biopsy right then.

My TSH blood test came back slightly high. My GYN faxed the results to my PCP. So, now I'm waiting to see if my PCP is going to call. My GYN said the test should be repeated and a free T4 and T3 should be done. If this is really a problem, it can be corrected with medication. Just what I want to do, take another pill.

Isn't life just grand.
My right hip and sometimes my lower back has been bothering me for months. No time and energy to get that checked out right now. One medical problem at a time. I just can't deal with any more then that. So, when all this stuff with my GYN is done and over with, I'll make an appt. with my PCP to see what is going on with my hip. In the mean time Aleve is my friend.

Stress is what my life is about right now. The holidays will be over soon and I will be glad. I need to get past New Years and some of the stress should subside, then maybe I can go back to working on things in therapy that I was working on before Thanksgiving came around.

If anything new happens (and please don't anyone hold their breath) I will update you.