Things are pretty stressful for me right now, but when aren't they. I went to the GYN on Friday, not exactly one of my favorite things to do, but I've been having problems and my therapist has been pushing me to go. And, it's something I really needed to do.
Well, in 2 weeks I get to have an ultrasound, which really doesn't thrill me. If they find anything, which he doesn't expect at all, he will do a biopsy. So, even though he is telling me he is sure there is no problem, I get to worry about this for 2 weeks. He needs to rule out any problems before we discuss what to do next. If there are no problems and I can live with what's going on, then he can to. That is something I need to decide. There are a couple of options that I have if everything is okay. I deal with those at the time.

I had to cancel with my daughter this weekend because of the weather and she sounded very disappointed. I felt bad. She wasn't planning on coming next weekend but, we're going to see if we can work something out. Someone is going to have to pick her up on Saturday since she has to babysit for her step-brother and I won't be able to get her home on time.

On Wednesday I meet with my lawyer. We will decide what to do next. I only see 2 options: schedule the appraisal ourselves, send the results to my sisters lawyer the results and give them a time frame for my sister to get a loan or we will go to court. The second option is to go right to court.
I still want to do everything we can to stay out of court and I would think my sister would also want to do that since going to court means she loses the house and would have to move. Going to court also means it will cost more money for this whole process to happen and I have no idea how long the process will take. As far as I know she has no reasonable explaination as to why she isn't doing anything, it's just her being a pain in the ass. She probably figures if she waits long enough I'll give up but, that isn't going to happen. I don't care how miserable I make her life - she never cared how miserable she made my life.

Those of you who know I've been "seeing" Ray - things are on a fast downward spiral. All he wants to talk about sex. He thinks sex is the answer to everything. He feels if he comes over he is entitled to sex, even if I'm not in the mood. He doesn't get that I still have a choice even though we've had sex before. He also has been drinking more and more. I've told him a few times that he drinks too much and he has a problem. He doesn't seem to care. Lately, he gets pissed at me when we talk on the phone and hangs up, he is also usually drunk. As far as I'm concerned he has pushed me away and I've told me but he doesn't get that either. I'm not calling him any more and there really isn't anything for us to talk about. He's not going to get invited over here again.

All this stuff is on top of all the other things I'm suppose to be dealing with in therapy.
I spend a good part of my weekends sleeping when I'm able to since, I'm back to not sleeping during the night. Sleeping during the night lasted about 5 nights.

Things are going to be tough for the next couple of weeks so if you don't see me online it's just because I'm not up to talking much. I'll try to keep this updated as things move on.