It's been awhile

I just finished chatted with a good friend friend of mine. About 3 weeks ago her nephew, who was one day shy of his 30th birthday passed away from a lethal combination of medication and drinking. He went out to celebrate his b-day with his buddies. It was the first time he was on medication. I don't know yet exactly what he was one and I have no idea how much he drank but the world is now short one caring and loving person. He left behind a 3 year old daughter. How is she going to understand what happened?
This was a real eye opener to me. 2 1/2 years ago, I was drinking way more then I should have been, every day for a month and a half. The way I see it, I am lucky to be alive today. All I know is there must have been something bigger then me out there looking after me. I was so depressed that I didn't care about living at all. I actually thought everyone would have been better off without me. When push came to shove I ended up in the hospital and 1 1/2 weeks later I was home and doing a lot better.

My friend also just told me that she has a spot on her liver that needs to be removed. She tells me not to worry but, she knows that is exactly what I will do. She will be coming up next week if she is able to find someone to watch her son. She wants to see me before she has surgery and I want to see her also. She has been through a lot in her life. She also has Lupus which doesn't help at all. I am praying that she will be okay and I am asking, that if you are reading this that you also say a pray for her. Though is often doesn't feel well, she will do everything she can to help someone in need. She has instilled this value in her children. Her son who is about 8 (I think) is collecting used books, toys and clothes for children, for a charity in the South Bronx. She has passed that warm, loving heart onto her son.

Things in my life are going okay. Robert and I have been talking and though we aren't seeing each other as much as I would like, I'm learning a lot about myself these days. I have started reading about spirituality and learning to love myself.
I am still waiting for things with my sister to be completed. Some things never change. Though, the Credit Union is waiting on things to get moving in Probate Court before they set a closing date. I would like this to be completed since I have the retainer for the lawyer on my credit card.
When I talked with my lawyer the other day, he explained to me that in some towns, the only hold Probate Court one or two days a week so it could take some time for this to actual get to the court.