Just an Update

It's been awhile since I've provided an update to everything going on in my life. So, I thought it was time.

The Continuing Saga...
The Bitch has one more week to either show proof that she has financing or sign an agreement to sell the house. If either of those 2 things don't happen, it's time to start the court process. Something that I'm not going to be very happy about doing at all. I know that they will wait until the last minute to contact us with any information that they have - that is the way that they do things. I am also sure that they will try to feed us a line of bull shit. The Bitch's lawyer has already done that before. I don't fall for it. Even though I haven't had contact with my "sister" for a long time, I know how she is and her lawyer can't play these games with me. So, as the week drags on, the stress is just going to build until I hear something, which doesn't seem promising to me.

For those of you who know that my shrink and I tried to decrease my Seroquel:
Things haven't been going that well. My urges have increased, I have been more self critical and my reactions to different situations happen faster then I can use my cognitive skills to get out of them. Once I fall into the negative spot, it is that much harder for me to get out of those spots.
Even though I have been having a hard time, I have been against increasing my Seroquel back to the regular dose. I want off the med at some point and if we can't decrease it just a little, then how will I ever get off it.
Well, after much discussion with my backup therapist and with the group, and the struggle inside, I talked with my shrink and agreed to go back to my regular dose.
There is a new med, Abilify that we will talk about switching to the next time I see him. I'm leary about switching because of the reaction I had with Geodon. But, this new med is once a day, and can have the added benefit of being able to lose weight.

With today being Easter, I haven't decided yet what I'm going to do. I have places I can go, I'm just not sure I want to go anywhere. I know that sitting home is not the best thing for me but is being around a bunch of people something I'm up to? I don't know and I won't really know unless I try it. Its been awhile since I've been out to Mom and Dad's and it would be nice to see them but the drive is long and I seem to get tired easier these days. There are things I can do around the house to keep myself busy. I will decide something this morning what I'm actually going to do.

Things with Robert and I are going okay. We had a few bumps in the road but those have been cleared up. It doesn't help that he is working 12 hour shifts, 6 days a week. It doesn't give us much time together. When he gets off work, he sleeps all day until it is time for him to go to work.
We are still working on trying to find him a different job. He doesn't mind working third shift, first shift is okay but, 2nd shift is his last choice.