How to change your mood in less then 2 mins

In my case, all it took was a call to my lawyer. He has heard nothing from my sisters lawyer since a week ago, this past Friday. Can anyone explain why it takes over a week to get a copy of a commitment letter from the Credit Union? There is no explaination. My lawyer was going to call the Bitch's lawyer and get back to me. As of now, I have heard nothing. This is not good news.
I called the other lawyer today and made an appointment for Thursday. I will be taking the day off since the only time he has is during the day but that is okay. I will do what it takes to get this moving along.
I would like to get the Bitch served as quickly as possible. The sooner the better. Maybe then she will take me seriously. Nothing else seems to matter.
As far as I'm concerned, she fed her lawyer a line of bullshit when she said she had a commitment letter.

So, needless to say, I am ready to kill. But, in reality, what I want to do is drink and hurt myself. Ahhh, but that is out of the question. I'm not allowed. I have to find other things to do that will help me. I can't use the quick fix - even though it would help me feel better.

So, here I am typing. Talking would probably help more but it's only fair to let everyone get home from work and relax some before I start venting in their ear.
I'll beat on the punching bag some. I may even write a letter I won't send.
All I really know is right now there is so much anger inside, I don't really know what to do with it, that won't get me in trouble.